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Sayonara Sadness

by Mitar

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1.
Raven 01:15
2.
A Day 03:26
days go by fast on the busy river bed days go by slower when you're sober wait another minute--feels like an eternity the government is greedy what will we do when they take over the world? a day goes by so slow when you're putting in your eight to four. a day goes by so slow where would you go?
3.
i'm the best at making the worse first impression clamoring up and my thoughts escape with no direction thinking out loud is my idea of self-expression s-s-s-s-stuttering at the most important interception don't write me off don't write me off you wrote it off i'm the best at making the worst first impression repeating words into run on, run on, run on, run on sentences talking out of time is nto a good way to make friends sh-sh-sh-sh-shuttering at the thought of her and i making a connection don't write me off don't write me off dont' write me off don't write me off you won't it off
4.
i tried to be a good boy for God but the devil knew my name i tried to be a good boy for God but the devil knew my dna i sought to be a good son for dad but the devil was too bad i tried to be a good boy for God but the devil was too strong and trying is lying trying is lying the last thing you see all the way down all the way down all the way down (he won't carry me) all the way down (no i won't go) all the way down (he won't carry me) all the way down (he won't carry me) all the way down do i have enough faith to be forgiven?
5.
That Bad 02:10
did no wrong yet you were harmed go play in the park can't outrun the car when the smoke was too dark why'd you have to do that? could of it had been that bad? why'd you have to do that? living in a hurricane vortex of bewilderment
6.
i'll wait outside while you collect yourself a few blocks around the corner if you can't bare to see me now standing on the chicago sewer cap--cause it's cold but not for long--cause it smells like chicago sewage i'll wait a few more minutes and after that i guess i'll get the hit after that i guess i'll change my mind again the crows keep me company along the gate around the mortuary wow--guess i'll wait outside
7.
been spending too much time alone, nobody here is home is it because i refuse to own a phone? been spending too much time in bed, too much time in my head where the river flowed, is just a dried up, cracked up ledge been spending too much money on junk my cats don't know how to talk and i forgot how to talk to anyone else used to be outgoing, way back in my high school prom now i'm spending to much time alone been spending too much time alone, drawing over the articles they say you can't be bored, you're just boring how did i get so far? i can't leave my own man's yard i feel so clumsy, poor, fucking burnt out, and rejected how to did detach myself how can i reassemble it when the paint cost so damn much i guess i'll use the computer paper.
8.
Stray 05:19
i was facing the wrong way on my trip back home and i was directing my soul into a black--the blackest of holes what did i see? what did i say? forever sealing my fate my arms feel like play-dough, legs scattered legos, and i'm not a kid anymore to play what did i need? what did i crave? frivolously wanting more of the same my luck is tortoise rolling down a hillside landing upright in a puddle of mud my hope is a hungry wolf howling at a half waning moon where i roam? where i stray? making it so so not okay but maybe one day it may but i'm afraid, afraid afraid that it won't stray
9.
Dillema 03:21
oh why? every now and then can't comedy be funny without being perverse dark jokes, dark jokes, you're not cool unless you curse oh why? does everybody say the name Jesus Christ in every movie, TV, and book you read why oh why i am the astronaut at the bottom of the sea the scuba-diver in the furthest galaxy but you can't have, both feet in shoe, that won't do but you might have, possible eternal life, wouldn't that be nice?
10.
sayonara sadness i gotta do the things that i've been storing in the back of my basement what is today? and what is time too? wasn't for sure i was alive well i opened my guitar and i opened my mind and eventually became my therapy sayonara sadness i'm saying good riddance to these self-abusing habits there's not place for pain in the long ride tot he golden gate deliverance from the doldrums deliverance from despair cause despair is unfair and when you laugh and you laugh with everyone and you laugh with everyone but when you cry you cry alone you cry alone alone and who wouldn't want to laugh with everyone who wouldn't want to laugh with everyone laugh with everyone

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The majority of these songs were written during the extremely demanding Chicago winter of 2013-14. Rerecorded this July in Humboldt Park and Jefferson Park, Chicago. Thanks for bothering.

by Mitar

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released July 31, 2014

For my family, Chicago friends, Florida friends, and future friends.

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